Dream 6/26/2014

I was living with 5 or 6 others in a big, beautiful beach house. It had a wide balcony on the beach side with sliding glass doors, so the entire views was just a strip of yellow sand and the glassy, shuffling Atlantic Ocean. Tranquil and inspiring. The house had been retro-fitted for communal living. There were only two bathrooms, but they each had several showers, so people would all go in together and talk and bond. There was a lot of love between everyone.

I was in a silent, introspective mood. I waited until everyone was finished before I took my shower, though, there would have been enough room for me. I went in and started playing with some electric clippers. I was thinking about trimming my leg hair (its probably been almost a year since I’ve shaved it, in reality). It’s not a practical thing to do, in that the beauty really comes from how full and natural the hair looks. If you trim it, it can look thin, blunt, and sporadic.

I played between two different settings, one a much closer cut than the other. I took the wider guard, first, up the length of my right calf, and noticed how dark and stubbed it seemed. I completed the trim around my entire lower leg. I thought that maybe if I went shorter it would look nicer. So, I removed the guard and trimmed away the rest. It looked a little nicer, but it felt sharp and abrasive. Not cute. Definitely not sexy. I immediately missed my hair, and regretted the decision to remove it. What was I thinking so deeply about, that I felt this physical change was a solution? Maybe I was actually feeling left out in the house. Maybe I wanted more attention. Maybe I wanted attraction.

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About Jessica Lee

Jessica is a twenty-something poet who performs most of her work on stage in Spoken Word. She has found writing therapeutic since she was child, and has pursued it ceaselessly. She enjoys writing even the most fleeting thoughts and dreams as SensicalRavings. Between long retail shifts, she enjoys writing observational pieces (always with a slant) of locally relevant subjects as ALLGainesville. If you appreciate inspiring, coming-of-age suppositions, become a follower. Though it's not always roses, it's raw!

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